

20 Nov 2025
Rebekah
Wolman
New
Moon
artbody
After Pacita Abad’s Self-Portrait (2003),
a 24-colour paper pulp, mixed-media collage
on a shaped, handmade paper assemblage
you must Pacita have been tired of the birthbody
all its functions its malfunctions fed up with infusions
transfusions bored with mortality its finality
to imagine your self design your self assemble
your self this collagebody construction of paper
pulp scraps foil playing till dawn in the workshop
Let's do it! you said when they said Anything is possible!
24 colors! circularity! no need for permission
to locate your self behind a low fence of purple
and orange pointed hats cross-tied with cowrie shells
to take a wide stance before a stack of paperbacks
teetering behind you topping out behind the hem of
your knee-length skirt all scrawled across with red
to wear the circles inside circles inside circles of your
kneecaps on the outside of your skirt to show them
off those handsome kneecaps like painted hubcaps
the left one with its saffron rim or like eyes the right
with its ocean-water-blue iris and dark pupil scored
with red chevrons kneecaps eyes maybe you have
other names for the parts of this otherbody with three
of what I see as spines cowrie shells placed vertically
for vertebrae external frame like a ribcage
or long arms held akimbo square hands flat against
your hips extra arms attached short ones shoulder
height little mittened hands like paws holding circles
green circular intestinal canal two sagging breast
circles the right one drooping lower than the left
crown halo of mirrors candy rainbow of frames
more mirrors only mirrors for facial features as if you
don't need to be seen just want people to see themselves
in you and your heart has grown huge with mirrors
instead of chambers in lime-green frames you are all
rainbow transplanted marrow and rainbow cells
infused I hear you say Here, have a blue donut
Behind the poem...
My poem was inspired by Self-Portrait, the final work in Circles in my Mind – the final exhibition of Filipina artist Pacita Abad before her death in 2004 from lung cancer. She created the work, along with all the others in the exhibition, during a three-week residency at the Singapore Tyler Print Institute, two years into her cancer treatments. The Artist Statement from the exhibition’s accompanying catalogue is referred to in line seven.
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